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June 30th, 2014

Mood: Lonely.

I couldn’t believe that same guy sitting there not having a care in the world for me was the same guy I gave my heart to and lost my mind for.

It hurt a little to see how little I seemed to have meant to him. I will always love him, but I can’t keep doing this to myself. I’m tired of waiting for him to come back to me. I have to accept the fact that it just might not happen and yet, deep down I know I want it to. I have so many thoughts that go through my head, from the way he loved me to the way he left me.

Well, I played it off very well.. I just kept talking to my friend like he wasn’t even there. He couldn’t even bother to say my name, he said hello and then bye ladies. Plural! I think that made me a little stronger. I realized he really does not care and he really does not miss me. It’s just something that I’ll eventually have to let go. The other night, I gave it some more thought and I think I pushed him away. I hurt him first and I think he just got even. I can’t blame him too much.