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I always felt like I always knew that he might not be right for me and I was ok with it

I dated someone whom I really enjoyed being with. Mainly because it was so easy to be with him. We were more friends than we were lovers. I really liked his company.

I always felt like I always knew that he might not be right for me and I was ok with it. I felt like it was better that we acted more like friends than anything else because the expectations and pressure was dropped. All that was left were genuine conversations.

I had a good time when I was with him. He treated me like a princess. At first, I thought “ok, this guy doesn’t like me romantically but he’s doing so much to make me happy.” I felt that it was weird but I also felt that it was a good thing. He was a good man, just not the man for me (big surprise).

He also didn’t scare me because I felt no real attachment and he never made me feel like I owed him something for all the things he did for me. It was just so easy to have a friendship that when it came down to it, we just had each other’s best interest at heart. 

For some time the thought of losing him made me sad because we were really good friends but I was more than ok with it if it meant his happiness. I have always wanted the best for my friends and this was no different. I wouldn’t want to hold on to someone out of pure selfishness.