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When it came to me figuring out what I was going to do for work since I didn’t see myself in the field I had chosen. I wanted to do more and I knew I was made for more but when it came down to taking a step towards a different direction, I didn’t feel good enough. The irony.

So how did I figure it out? 

It came down to where I was. God said don’t chase it. Chase me.

I pressed into God. Not because I wanted a new career or relationship but because I was struggling and life was getting harder and harder to manage. I pressed in to find relief because the way I was living my life was only making it worse. 

Partying, food, people, and stuff, they all came with a price tag that I could no longer afford. I didn’t want to keep losing money to feel better for two seconds or get fat from all the chocolate I wanted to eat to feel better and the people started to cost me too much of my peace. 

Don’t stress, just relax. It will come to you. Make your wants, want you.

God showed me that I shouldn’t be chasing after things and people. My insecurities would of course tell me otherwise. How else would I hold on to the things that I wanted right? 

The only thing I should have been chasing after was God. That is the truth I am living today and it’s a beautiful way to live. It’s a happy way to live. It’s a peaceful way to live. There is nothing that can pull you from God’s love and it’s the only love I have ever known to be so pure and so unconditional. It is so different from the way I was living and it makes me sad to think that there are others feeling the way I used to feel before God and my wish is that they don’t…so much that I had to write about it!